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I've been feeling really shitty lately. About a few different things but mainly my mum and my future. I started back on my meds and I dunno if that's what's doing it or what. I'm worried about where my life is going and what I plan to do for a career. I mean my plan has always been to do something in art, and I've wanted to do Illustration for a while now, and I still do but now I feel like I'll never be able to do it. Like I've always said if someone saw my work and really liked it, I could be hired on the spot, without any schooling or anything. But how realistic is that? How often does that happen? And even if it did, if someone's looking for an artist they'd most likely want one with experience in lots of different media and be able to do a variety of different things. No one hires an artist that's only good at one thing. I love life drawing and figure drawing and I can do it, but I've never honed that skill because I've always just wanted to do cartooning. But even cartoonists would've had to study different methods like figure drawing and realism, they would've had to go through schooling to learn and work on perfecting those skills. Every mentor I've talked to about the subject has always said draw everyday, draw as much as you can. And I do draw pretty much everyday, but it's all the same stuff, it's all cartoons. I have done other media like pastels, oil paint, acrylic, charcoal, gauche, and all that kind of stuff. So I know how but I don't do it frequently. I have a portfolio set up with some different things but they'd probably want it to be much more extensive. I've done different media before but I'm just mediocre at it all, and you have to be really good at all of them to get anywhere. I know everyone's gunna say "practice, practice, practice" but I need help and guidance in a class or something, and I don't have the money for that. And even if by some miracle I got the money, and learned everything I needed to know, and graduated, then what? Who needs Illustrators? What if no one needs one, and I couldn't get a job anywhere? That would've been all a waste. I mean I don't even know if Illustrator is a realistic dream. Is it? There's only a handful of jobs I can think of that require the skills I have. Maybe I'm working towards an unreachable goal. I'm wondering if I should look somewhere else, but this is all I have. Art has always been the only thing I ever loved and was good at, I have nothing else.
My biggest fear has always been that I’d end up in a cubicle like my mum. I’m just scared that I’m gunna be stuck working at a retail store or Tim Horton’s or something like that for the rest of my life. That’s probably a stupid fear, but I’m terrified of it. I joke that I’m going to be one of the vagrants on the streets of Toronto drawing doodles for change, and though I don’t believe that I’ll become homeless, I fear my life is on the same downward slope and I‘m running out of time. I guess I’m just kind of lost and scared at the moment. I get like this sometimes, I’ll just hate everything I draw and think I’m completely untalented and inept at everything, and wonder how I’ll ever make something of myself when I have nothing to offer the world. Hence the name I guess, right? lol
My biggest fear has always been that I’d end up in a cubicle like my mum. I’m just scared that I’m gunna be stuck working at a retail store or Tim Horton’s or something like that for the rest of my life. That’s probably a stupid fear, but I’m terrified of it. I joke that I’m going to be one of the vagrants on the streets of Toronto drawing doodles for change, and though I don’t believe that I’ll become homeless, I fear my life is on the same downward slope and I‘m running out of time. I guess I’m just kind of lost and scared at the moment. I get like this sometimes, I’ll just hate everything I draw and think I’m completely untalented and inept at everything, and wonder how I’ll ever make something of myself when I have nothing to offer the world. Hence the name I guess, right? lol
Line Art Requests: Update 2
See? I am working on them. I guess I just have to do all of them in sketch form until I can get another tablet. *sigh* This sucks.
Line Art Requests: Update
So bad news guys, my tablet broke :( Which means no more drawing for a while. I'm really sorry to everyone that asked for requests but it looks like it's gunna take even longer to do these. *sigh* The reason I did this whole line art specific request thing was so I could do these drawings faster, and now this fuckin happens. FML. Seriously. ~lll-plz (https://www.deviantart.com/lll-plz)
I'm gunna try and see if I can get it fixed, what's wrong with it exactly, or I might have to buy a new one in which case I have to wait until I get some money together. UGH! I hate this! All I wanna do is draw nice stuff for nice people so they can have nice things but NOOOOOO the universe
Line Art Requests
I've recently joined a few line art/colouring groups on here since I have quite a few unfinished drawings due to the fact that I HATE COLOURING! So I was thinking of offering up my services again, but this time to people that enjoy colouring and want something of their own to colour. So if you would like a personalized drawing of JUST line work that you can colour yourself, have as your own, and put up in your own gallery, please let me know.
Example:
Line art by me
Coloured by ~UsoppLover4EVER (https://www.deviantart.com/usopplover4ever)
As always, anything requested is FREE FREE FREE! I don't do commissions so you don't have to worry about money. I'm just kind of tapped out
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"Why?" you might ask. WELL.....
....I don't know.
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Aw dear Its all right.
Don't say that kind of crap. Because your wrong. Your art is amazing. And I mean MEAN ITS A M A Z I N G. Your not going to end up working in a cubicle. I can garentea that will never happen. But I will say tho that you can never give up on art. Nothing will really come out the way you want it to. Like my work for example.
And I'm just wondering. But you haven't been to college yet have you? Look, if you go to college than you will have at least a billion different options that involve art. Its something that will make you succeed.
Don't take art to siriusly hon. Just have fun with it and and you will get better. Witch I fined hard to believe since you are really good at it.
Pleazz don't give up.